第一次上班，那年我12岁

到徐家沟煤矿，是我第一次上班，那年我十二岁，1974年，5月9号，我永远不能忘记的日子。从西安坐长途汽车到铜川，寻找那一如吉普赛人的剧团，我的继父把我放在那里，当有一个老师给我说，你继父走了，我打了一个冷颤，我心想，从此，我一个人的生活开始了。晚上，走到后台，看见一个脸盆都是油彩，我蹲下用肥皂洗的干干净净！

I

we

t

to

xujiagou

coal

mi

e

fo

the

fi

st

time.

I

was

twelve

yea

s

old

that

yea

.

O

May

9,

1974,

I

could

eve

fo

get

the

day.

F

om

xi

'a

to

to

gchua

by

bus,

looki

g

fo

a

t

oupe

like

the

gypsies,

My

stepfathe

put

me

the

e,

whe

the

e

was

a

teache

to

me

said,

you

stepfathe

left,

I

played

a

cold

shive

,

I

thought,

f

om

ow

o

,

I

a

pe

so

's

life

bega

.

I

the

eve

i

g,

walked

to

the

backstage,

saw

a

washbasi

is

oil,

I

squat

dow

with

soap

to

wash

clea

!

没有人告诉你要干什么，工作要自己用眼睛找，把自己一开始就融入单位，是我从小就有的自觉的醒悟。

No

o

e

told

you

what

to

do,

to

fi

d

thei

ow

wo

k

with

thei

eyes,

the

begi

i

g

of

thei

ow

i

to

the

u

it,

从那以后，我除过每天的练功以外，台后提手锣，上灯光楼打追光，上午写字幕，下午自学语文，画布景，上街贴我写的演戏广告，有时，跟大师傅买菜，更是用一年的时间当电工，挣得一双线手套！

I

have

bee

co

scious

of

disillusio

me

t.

F

om

the

o

,

I

i

additio

to

the

p

actice

eve

y

day,

afte

the

stage

to

ca

y

a

go

g,

lights

o

the

floo

playi

g

chasi

g

light,

w

iti

g

subtitles

i

the

mo

i

g,

afte

oo

self-study

Chi

ese,

pai

ti

g

sets,

st

eet

paste

I

w

ite

acti

g

ads,

sometimes,

with

the

maste

to

buy

food,

but

also

use

a

yea

whe

elect

icia

,

ea

a

pai

of

gloves!

王石凹煤矿，是铜川最大的煤矿，这里有建好的剧院，有一天4顿的食堂，有一个如山般的大坡，坡上有两辆火车车厢，用大绞盘带动，一上一下，好玩的很。最忘不了的是演戏结束后，12点还有加餐，油炸小鱼！快乐的童年，不想来的快去的也快！

无论工作有多累，我都能坚持，无论生活有多苦，我也能忍受，但是，我最害怕的事来了，剧团放假了，无家可归的我，独自站在舞台的后沟，望着沟底两只大瓮用绳子绑起，里面是一具杀人犯的尸体，无比恐惧！望着天空刺眼的太阳，没有一丝的温暖，黄土高原上的风，寒冷而无情！

No

matte

how

ti

ed

the

wo

k

is,

I

ca

stick

to

it,

o

matte

how

bitte

the

life

is,

I

ca

also

bea

it.

Howeve

,

my

g

eatest

fea

came

whe

the

t

oupe

was

o

vacatio

a

d

I

was

homeless.

I

stood

alo

e

i

the

back

ditch

of

the

stage,

looki

g

at

the

dazzli

g

su

i

the

sky

without

a

t

ace

of

wa

mth.

那一天，全剧团的女人都为孤儿留下了泪水！没有家的人，对未来充满绝望，但又充满战胜困难的坚强斗志！一无所有，无所畏惧。克服难题如有神助。受困苦如受甘甜，心静如水，这时，我成长了。我只身回到姨妈家，上交伙食费，自费寄养！那年，我12岁！

O

that

day,

all

the

wome

i

the

t

oupe

c

ied

fo

the

o

pha

s!

No

home,

the

futu

e

is

full

of

despai

,

but

also

full

of

st

o

g

will

to

ove

come

difficulties!

Nothi

g,

othi

g

to

fea

.

Ove

comi

g

difficulties

is

a

godlike

task.

Suffe

i

g

such

as

sweet,

calm

wate

,

at

this

time,

I

g

ew

up.

I

we

t

back

to

my

au

t's

teachi

g

alo

e,

a

d

paid

fo

my

boa

d

a

d

foste

ca

e!

I

was

12

yea

s

old!